Re: The Well #14 - Welcome to WahWah World!
You've gotten the chance to do what many folks dream of doing for a living , which is excellent.
But do you ever think of what's down the road for you , and if you want to continue doing this or would you like to do something a little more 9-5?
I've definitely wondered what is down the road for me, but I have spent the past couple of years studying the notion that neither the past nor the future exist as anything other than thought, and that the only moment which actually exists is now. I am learning that it is completely useless to worry about the future because it doesn't exist. I can make my little plans, but there is no guarantee that they won't be replaced by some other eventuality. Besides, worrying about anything is destructive to the entire being. As long as I get the sense that I am providing a service to myself and others through playing music, I will continue to do it. I like the freedoms that it provides in my life, and I have also enjoyed the process of watching all of my initial motivations and delusions of glamour dissolve before my eyes, leaving service as the only motivation which has any substance. If this changes, then I will change with it, but for now, this is my perception.
There is nothing about the 9 to 5 existence which appeals to me. I've seen enough people around me pass from this plane of existence to know that the notion of security is an illusion that can be shattered in an instant. I am learning that the truly important things in life, like peace and love, are not to be found in the outer world, but exist within and always have. As a result, I am no longer looking for them in the world around me, where they are not to be found with any form of permanence. I believe in finding a way to do what you love and love what you do, whilst still providing a service. Then it becomes a service fueled by love, which I believe carries more substance than a service fueled by a sense of duty, especially if it involves or generates some form of resentment. It doesn't matter what form the service takes, guitarist, plumber, window cleaner, it's all the same. The only important element is the intent behind the service. For me, that means being a musician, for now. It means that I have to be prepared to take on all manner of work as a musician, and that I will not always have the luxury of choosing what it is that I will be playing, but that fits in perfectly with my larger quest of gradually dissolving the ego, which is a whole other story in itself, but intimately tied in with these notions.
Now I'm off to rest under the Bodhi tree and contemplate my navel.
Cheers..................................wahwah
